eucharist

the last supper, came from another last supper: passover

at passover they had wine, bitter herbs, roasted lamb, and bread

passover was celebrating the escape from slavery of the jews from egypt

when christ had his last supper, he offered the bread and wine, but no lamb, no meat
in fact the lamb was christ himself

the eucharist is a meal of reconciliation, and the first bread dipped in wine was given to Judas
to forgive him for his betrayal

the other apostles were not sure if he was only leaving to bring back the lamb to their meal, but jesus knew and he told judas to do whatever he was going to do quickly

and when judas did not come back, jesus knew that judas was going to betray him

judas's betrayal actually represents our sins, at times we have sinned or betrayed our promise to god, so if you hate judas then really you hate the sinner in all of us who are not perfect

Giving the bread and blood to jesus, before he ever betrayed him, is god's way of showing us that hee forgives us before we even commit a sin, even a mortal sin. God loves us that much, that he knows we will fall, but he will forgive us and reconcile us during communion

When judas went to the pharisees, he told them I will kiss the one who is christ, but please take care of him

I am not sure what motivated judas to give up christ, but likely satan was leading him at this time

Just as jesus told peter "get back away from me satan", when we are at our worst satan is working in our pride, our ego, our minds, our bodies or our souls. And satan knows where to attack each of us. He knows our weaknesses, and if we are not vigilant with our prayers he will take control of us and cause us to sin, rupturing the holy spirit from our bodies at that moment

Judas even tried to give back the money to the pharisees, but they did not listen and continued their persecution of christ

That is when judas went to hang himself

Even abraham had to offer his son as a burnt offering
his son isaac, asked his father where is the lamb for the burnt offering, when he brought his only son to be offered up to god on the mountain

the eucharist, the body and blood of christ given up for all in memory of me, so we are to offer the body and blood of christ until he returns again to walk on this earth at the end of time

those who eat the body and blood of christ will never be hungry and never thirst

After this talk, we spent some time with each other, and with the bishop

And we then prayed in front of the blessed sacrament at st marthas, I was listening for a message from christ, I believe he will provide me an answer soon, to the prominent questions in my mind

I have gone to the blessed sacrament in these last 3 years with sfc, more than I had in my previous 32 years of my life. I go there to find a quiet place to listen and reflect with jesus.