when you have been loved, it makes you want to fall in love. But the funny thing is not everyone wants to do that. When I was younger I just figured there would be a time and place for that. For the last 5 years, I have wanted to find a partner.
But then god surprised me, and made me take a look at my life, my habits, my emotional life, my physical strength, and my sins.
And slowly he peeled away layers of pain, and hurts that I wasnt even aware of. As the song goes, I will never know what it cost, to see my sins upon that cross. And I wept over and over again, as Jesus knocked on my heart. As I surrounded myself with people of strong faith, I wondered if I was even ready to take care of a partner and a family. There must still be some work I need to do on my own heart to prepare me to be a husband.
And then I had a very active day, exercising and when I woke up the cross I had on my chain, had fallen off of my neck. So I lived without that cross, but it felt wrong. I went shopping with my friend Billy, and while we were wandering around, I found a new cross. Not necessarily a better cross, but just a different cross. I put it on and it felt like a new beginning. And I found a ring, and I challenged myself to try a new way of living, a new covenant with my god.
And when I commune with my lord at mass I eat the pan de vida, and ask him to wash my sins away and prepare me for the work he wants me to do. I emptied my old cup of knowledge, and pray for god to fill me up with new thoughts.
Create in me a light that draws people unto me,
give me the courage to reach out to strangers.
And let my actions create questions and interest.
Why would this man shout to the heavens,
march for the lives of the unborn, rally voters for
laws that protect the mothers of those babies, why
does he weep during worship. Are they tears
of sadness or elation and joy? Could they
be an awakening towards a better way of life.
I'll be your love, I'll be your light, I'll never let you be alone...
you are so lovely, your are so worthy, you are so wonderful to me.
Indescribable, uncontainable, you are amazing god.
give me your strength, and your wisdom from sunrise to sunset
show me the road less taken, and the trials and tests that will
reveal desperation and give me thanksgiving when joy and love abound
the peace and serenity of faith, courage, and wisdom.....
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